No Fumar

I have a terrible, nasty habit that I have been trying to quit for a long time. When I decided that I would kick the habit on May 1st, 2010, I made a list of other things that need to go. I didn’t realize I had so many addictions until I started making the list:

1. Smoking
2. Caffeine
3. Food
4. T.V.
5. Facebook
6. Nail biting

I mean really, all that’s missing are pornography, alcohol and drugs. I had no idea I was on such a downward spiral. I need an intervention. Actually, an intervention was probably what God had in mind when he sent the Mormon missionaries to my house. One day I will have to tell you a story. Not today though, today is about dealing with my horrible secrets.

Smoking has to be dealt with first. Head on, cold turkey. I don’t even know why I smoke. It’s not something I particularly enjoy, what with the smell, the cost, and oh yeah, the DEATH. You would think a shortened life span would be good enough deterrent to avoid just about anything, but sadly, I scoff in the face of death one puff at a time.

I like to think of myself as a “clean” smoker. Never in the house or the car. Only outside and never around other people. Unless they are smoking too. I avoid doing it in the direct path of an entry door, because I am considerate too. Oh yes, I give myself mad props for being such an awesome smoker. I bet you wish all smokers were as awesome as me. Oh wait, you probably wish people would just stop smoking all together. Understandable, I am totally in agreement with you. This does not change the fact that I have a particularly hard time letting the habit go. That’s why it’s called an addiction people!